Saturday, February 21, 2009
I left work about a week ago and now I'm serving my 4 months maternity leave...Its really good to be away from work but surprisingly,I begin to miss being at work...Its not the work that I missed but its the colleagues whom makes me going each day I'm at work...
Even though its just a week yet so much things happened along the way which no one knew...Only me,myself and I alone facing the music...Its not easy for me seriously...I don't know if what I'm facing now is post-natal blues *shrug*...
Whenever I'm alone,I tend to think about the past and that's really disturbing and unfortunately,I tend to get carried away...I hate this...But I will try my best to keep myself busy with Ryan and Rafael...And if Hubby's around,I feel more like myself...It might be becos I'm so used to be at work and suddenly,I've to serve this confinement and be indoors...It kinda drove me up the wall at times....Haizzz.....
Ok lah enough about me...
Lets talk about the Kids...Ryan & Rafael...
Ryan now is 22months and he is really growing well...He's talking...And super duper active...He's my gem and w/o him,it would be really quiet...We're planning for his 2nd birthday bash...Most likely,planned on the 11th April 09 (Saturday)...But all this yet to be confirm but a bash is a must...So lets wait n see... =)
Rafael is now 1 wee 1 day old and also alhamdullillah,looking all good....I'm breastfeeding him and also follow up with Enfalac formula...Pusat dah tanggal...=)...And his jaundice has decrease...Just that now his skin is a lil dry and peeling...Overall,both are good....
I will update all pics soon after I got hold of my usb aites....
Cheerios..Z-out!
Friday, February 20, 2009
In loving relationships, there are several important things to know. One of these is that the key to a successful relationship is being able to apologize. The more intimately you are involved with another person, the more difficult it becomes to say "I'm sorry". You are aware of her faults and she is aware of yours. It is very easy in the heat of battle to hurt your partner in a very sensitive place. Your partner trusted you by forming a relationship and letting herself be vulnerable. When you say, "I'm sorry", it must be done with the sensitivity to understand the line that was crossed.
///Especially for You///
" I love you very much,
Even though at time I do things that hurt,
I tried so hard to hope that you always see,
How much you being in my life and what you mean to me,
I am sorry yet again for causing you pain,that is the last thing I ever wanted to do,
Even when I am trying to look out for you and do the right thing I mess up,I am sorry for that
too,
I hope you still know how much I love and cherish you,
Like nothing else in my life gives me the thrill of being loved by you,
So I hope that you listen and see it in my eyes,this sincere apology that comes with tears from
from deep inside..."
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Another new webisite for 2009... =)
Let me update you readers with the latest...
Last Friday,I did not go to work due feeling a lil discomfort...Of which I've been experiencing for the past few days...And also,I'm having my 37th weeks check up on that very day at 1500hrs...I woke up as usual..Hubby was suppose to report to work after my check up for OT.Woke up,showered and got changed to grab something to eat b4 the check up....We end up having Mcdons at Bedok....
I register myself at the clinic as usual and waited patiently for my turn....Played my PSP while waiting...When it was my turn,we both went in as usual and doc got me to lie down for the usual scanning...Hubby stood beside me...I was surprise when the doc said,"Oooo...I cannot see the baby's head...Its way too low..."...So I mentioned to her that I've been having discomfort for the past few days as though the baby's head pushing out...She decided to have a VE to see whether my cervix is open....I wasn't thinking of anything cos my edd is March 6th...Its still way too soon,isn't it?The doc checked and guess wha,folks???My cervix is 5CM OPEN!!!!!! The doc advised me to proceed to the hospital right after the check up...I was stunned cos I didn't expect it to be this early...Not even Hubby...I looked at Hubby and said,"Oh No! Its coming!"...Hubby smiled and said that everything's gonna be alrite...
Upon receiving the shocking news,the 1st person I called was my good fren...To inform that I'm delivering the very day...GOSH!You should hear my fren's voice...He was surprised and thought I was joking...But then I said,"I am going to the hospital and will update you of anything..."...Then I called my family and they gave the same reaction...*SURPRISE*!....LOL!!!
Hubby and I then drove off to East Shore...I started to feel the contractions but it wasnt that bad....Reached ESH around 1645hrs and was direct to go to the delivery suite right away...Got changed and settled down in bed,feeling excited,nervous...I opted for normal delivery WITH epidural without 2nd thoughts cos I am so afraid of pain...LABOR PAIN...The midwife came and gave a second VE and its 6CM dilated....She asked me again if I still want to go with the epidural....Cos she said by the time the epidural's processing,I might be already in labor...I asked Hubby and he said,"Lets try Normal w/o Epidural"...He sounded so assuring so I said OK....Contractions come n go...I had the gas bit by bit...Took pix and laughed with Hubby...
Dr Heng came around 1715hrs,and burst my water bag...And I waited....And this is when the LABOR PAIN which I've been hearing started....This time the mask was on the whole load of time...I was in great pain that I started to cry....The pain got so bad that the midwife gave me a painkiller jab on my thigh....By that time,I was like,"Aaarrrrgggghhhh!!!!!!!!!!PAAAAAIIIIIINNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!"....All I could remember is grabbing Hubby's hand till it turned white...He caressed my head and asked me to breathe in and out....I can't talk...All I did was looked up at Hubby and shook my head...signalling to him that the pain was unbearable...Dr Heng came in again and did a last VE and she said,"If u feel like pushing,just do it...Its high time..."...The moment I hear that I start to push with all my might...And OMG!!!!!!The pain is REAL PAIN!!!!!!I know I screamed as I pushed...I dun give a damn who is next to me or whatsoever....
Without knowing,I hear Dr Heng's said the baby's out and put the baby on me....And Hubby kissed my forehead and said its all done.... Phew!! 13th Feb 2009 @ 1850hrs,weighing 2.67kg,QYFLIE RAFAEL, was born....Allhamdullillah!!!!!!!!!
I was doubly surprised when Dr Heng said that I dun need any stiches cos I wasnt snipped.Allhamdullillah!!!!As i got cleaned up,I started to text friends about this news....Hubby called our family to inform them as well... =) ...I was moved to the normal ward at around 2130hrs...By then my family can only see the baby thru the nursery glass.Too late lah....
Now almost coming to a week,everything's well..Both mummy and baby...I'm recovering well and trying to lose some weight during this confinement period...Baby is doing well as well,just a slight jaundice...
A new addition to the family....QYFLIE RAFAEL...
Will try to post pics when time permits yeah....
For now,Z signing out......Cheers!
